what if the time stops ticking at 12:01 AM
Dear Diary.
i've been out and about these few days. i can now sit in front of the computer and relax. haha (: monday, tuesday and wednesday were supposedly job-hunting days. yeah, we did job hunt. but up till now, no phone calls. only one from an agency. let's see: at tuas. working as a receptionist. minimum pay $5.50 per hour. five and a half day week. NAH. so i declined. hurhur. anyhow. have been out with the same group of peeps day after day. kinda kills boredom though. i mean, hey! hanging out with the same type as me. (the out-of-job type) :D i guess tomorrow i'm going to slack all day at home. or maybe do some spring cleaning around the house since there's going to be a party on Christmas Eve.
jialing asked if i'd like to work as a sales assistant. selling crystals I THINK. i'm not too sure about the details. i must ask her again, but somehow i dont really dare. yikes. i certainly hope the working location isn't far out. weewooweewoo. should i call tomorrow? i wonder.
i had a nightmare last night. what nightmare? i got my O'level results. (frowns) i flunked really bad. really bad. on tuesday, when i was out with them. they were talking about the entrance for whichever polytechnic courses. and i felt so out of place and upset. i kinda have this mindset like, i'm going to fail my Os and enter the ITE. seriously. they say, have more confidence. but i cant. i dont want to give myself hope, for nothing. some wanted to enter the Business School. some wanted the Science School. yada-yada. i have my dreams too. i wanted business or arts (as in MEDIA art or whatever). but when i went to the sites to check out the COPs. i sunk. there is NOWAY i can enter business because i totally messed up my humanities. for design, you need really good grades as well, i dont know why. pffft. people say, plan. plan for what? they don't always go according as we plan. why self-decieve. why climb up high then fall down greater. why didn't i study hard enough before? yes, it's easy to talk (or rather, type) ahh~ whatever. it's over anyway. in one or two month's time, i'll be obtaining my results. i'll either cry my eyes swollen or laugh my ass off whether i qualify into a Polytechnic or not. OMG. it's not even NEAR and the nightmares have already started.
my golly, look at the time. i've not showered since my return. off i go now. after that, i wanna do some reading. heh! (:
