what if the time stops ticking at 4:42 PM
there are so many things i wish i didn't have to know. didn't have to hear. didn't have to read. didn't have to see. you know, if one day i lost my memory, the present me, would be most glad. to be able to forget every ugly thing in the world would be great. but what can i say? all are inevitable?
i actually felt pretty lousy when certain things were being said earlier, with me overhearing it. yes, again, i wish i did not have to hear it. but should i use this to make myself more determined and motivated? i guess i ought to.
what if the time stops ticking at 11:40 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY brother dearest (:
hahaha. those four words, says it all? i was so out-of-place during the celebration yesterday. hur. fancy being out-of-place in your very own house. bull crap. anyhow, my brother invited his primary, secondary, poly & army friends. along with my relatives from my mother's side & 2 relatives from my father's side, my god-ma (which i've not seen for nearly a year). hmm, yeah. that's about it. thing about crowds? makes me wanna crawl into my room and hide in there forever. i bet, if the computer's in my room, i'd stay in there until everything ends. with everyone chattering at every corner of the house (except my room, my parents' room & the storeroom) it's as though you're surrounded by gazillions of houseflies/bees, whatever. the only few people i chatted with was my cousin (again about school) and my aunt (from my father's side). after the party came to an end, we cleaned up the house. yeap.
today, the family of four, went to Plaza Singapura aka PS to return the SCV thing and to celebrate again! (: haha. we all had ramen for dinner. and was suppose to give them all an earthquake treat. pity it was too late, so maybe another time? (HA!)
so school starts tomorrow. BUMMER! after weeks of early release and 'off' days, i have to go through this week of hell. damn. i feel the pre-monday blues already. and to make things worse, i had an AWFUL nightmare last night about, (yup! you got it right) school. AND to add on to what has already become worse, i have my CLB O'level oral tomorrow noon!
(SLAPS FOREHEAD)
goodbye all.
what if the time stops ticking at 11:30 PM
i hereby, announce that, the preliminary examinations are offically OVER (: woooot. i've calculated an approximate value of the end-result. i'll probably get like 30 over points for my prelims. exaggerating? NOT. what i find tough, people find it relatively easy. like, i'm a goner right? hur. some of them dont study. but even though i mug until 2 something in the morning, i still have trouble completing it. pfffft. alright. enough about exams. spoils my uhh...night?
tomorrow i'll be celebrating my brother's 21st birthday, together with many MANY other people. a whole swarm of them. (slaps forehead) it's not on the actual date though. we're celebrating one day in advance. thou shalt protect the computer from any enemies! ahhh. how i wish i can shift it over to my room, just for one day? ): den lock myself in the room throughout the whole 'party'.
hmm. notice i barely blog these days? 'cause, i now find it hard to express myself. it's kind of, dumb. isn't it? i have so many things i wanna say. but, due to restrictions, i am unable to do so. i'm even thinking of putting a stop to my blogging career. (HAHA. that sounds downright, ridiculous?) what career. hur. oh well. i'm gonna end here. will update someday next time. haha. till then, take care folks.
what if the time stops ticking at 11:47 PM
i'm blogging today. to let you folks know that i'm still alive and kicking! hur (: only, i almost died yesterday. no thanks to the haze. had an asthma attack and had to puff my inhaler. anyhow, this whole 'holiday' thing is coming to an end it a couple of days. okay, to be more specific. TWO days.
was suppose to mug the entire week profusely, but i got carried away doing other stuff. which is no surprise, because it happens all the time. guilt-stricken. why? 'cause everytime grandma calls, she asks what i'm up to. and when i tell her i'm watching tv or whatnot, she says i deserve a break after studying the whole day. HA! but she probably knows i dont study the whole bloody day now. (through my mother of course) oh well. i lack determination, motivation, etcetera. OKAY! so now i'm making up excuses. fine, fine. so lazy worms are crawling all over me, inside-out. pffft. i hate making confessions. (laughs out loud for real)
yesterday, the 'aircon people' came and 'ripped off' my air-conditioner and replaced them with NEW ones (: yay-ness. and then they left, leaving the house encrusted with fine particles of dust/dirt. yuck. DOUBLE yuck. after which, four of us cleaned the house thoroughly. now, it's spick and span. heh! phase one of house renovation, accomplished! yeeeha.
what if the time stops ticking at 2:20 PM
life. such a fragile thing. something all of us take for granted. something all of us do not treasure.
yesterday, a cousin of mine passed away. after five whole years of suffering, she can now rest in peace. sigh. how she landed in this state? she went to australia to further her studies. came back to singapore and went back again, to do her Masters. during that period of time, she met with an accident. she was a really really strong-willed person i must say. she fought, and fought. she was determined to live. and she made it! but she could no longer live her life the way all of us do. for the past 5 years, i guess she was in pain. i dint get to play much with her in the past. oh well. what do we get in studying so much? (slaps forehead)
i went to the funeral wake last night. one of my aunt cried and cried, so much. if only i could go over and give her a hug. but in that family, i'm just somebody else. and my ah-ma? when she arrived, we could all feel the tension. her limbs were weak. yet, she wallked as fast as she could. by the time she reached the entrance of the room, she lost all co-ordination.
the whole thing was rather solemn (that goes without saying right? hurr.) oh. right. on my way to the toilet, it was CREEPY. there were coffins and near the toilet, its the room where they pump out all the blood and fluid of the dead? okay, enough about that.
gotta run now! bye (:
