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What is depression?
Depression is a mood disorder that causes you to feel sad or hopeless for an extended period of time. More than just a bout of "the blues" or temporary feelings of grief or low energy, depression can have a significant impact on your enjoyment of life, your work, your health, and the people you care about.
Depression affects people differently. Some feel down for extended periods of time; for others the feelings of depression come and go. If you have short episodes of mild depression, you may be able to continue to work and take care of daily activities. However, if you do not seek some form of treatment for your depression, you are at risk for getting more depressed or becoming physically ill. In severe cases, depression can cause people to become incapable of communicating, unable to do routine activities, or suicidal. In these cases, it is essential to seek medical attention.
People with depression may be reluctant to seek help because they feel that it is a sign of personal weakness or a character flaw or that they should be able to "pull out of it" on their own. We now know that depression, like other medical conditions, has a chemical and biological basis. Treatment for depression is safe and usually effective even for severely depressed people.
If you think you may have depression, take a short quiz to evaluate your symptoms:
Interactive Tool: Are you depressed?
What causes depression?
Depression may be triggered by stressful life events, other illnesses, certain drugs or medications, or inherited traits. Although causes of depression are not entirely understood, we know it is linked to an imbalance in brain chemistry. Once the imbalance is corrected, symptoms of depression generally improve.
What are the symptoms?
Depression is more than just the normal, temporary feelings of sadness and hopelessness associated with difficult life events. The symptoms of depression are often subtle at first. It can be hard to recognize that symptoms may be connected and that you might have depression.
Common symptoms include:
Depressed mood.
Inability to enjoy activities.
Problems concentrating.
Changes in eating habits or appetite.
Difficulty
Feelings of guilt and hopelessness; wondering if life is worth living (common).
All of these symptoms can interfere with your quality of life. Even if you don't have major depression, if you have experienced a few of these symptoms for at least 2 weeks you may have a less severe form of depression that still requires treatment.
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i hate this whole depression thing. it's practically eating me up. i know i sound stupid and all. i did that test above. and i was gauged as majorly depressed. like, what the heck right? -smacks forehead- for the past one week or so, i've been yeah, depressed, i guess. argh. my lifestyle has gone like all haywire. it's as though you jumble up the jigsaw pieces which were once put together in place. now, they're all messed up.
all those symptoms above? they're all what im suffering from now. how did i land myself in this state today? i dont know. i chatted with a friend last night, he said i was..different from the others. was that actually a good or bad thing? i dont know. i reckon different because i'm always alone. always keeping to myself. barely speaking. while the others are all happy-go-lucky, chatty, gleeful. it sucks. yeah, i probably have a choice of how i want my life to be. i cant make myself smile more, talk more, laugh more, be genuinely EUPHORIC. when i do so, it just seems all so fake. my voice gets all dull and monotonous. crappy. another friend told me that everyone has to go through this stage in life? true or not, i dont know. i told ANOTHER friend, i think i'm suffering from depression. she laughed, and said i was crazy. ouch.
trying to make the best out of things now though. hopefully i'll get, better? O.o not that im sick or anything. it's just another four months before i break free from this misery. i have to hang in there. i just have to.
darlings, if you intend to tag anything nasty. please, take it back. it'd be most appreciated. thank you.
