what if the time stops ticking at 1:30 PM
i was too tired to even touch the computer when i reached home yesterday. so i thought i'd do a two-in-one thing today. yeap.
yesterday;
we were being let off earlier from school. 1055am lessons ended. went to submit my dnt folio work. at LONG last. heh ((: happiness. lol.
then, alone, i made my way to lavender. collected my renew-ed passport. and headed straight home. the journey wasn't as long as i thought it would be. reached home at about 130pm? used the computer awhile. took my shower. then i went to cck interchange, met up with huimin and the whole grp. took 188 to school.
there was this dumb annual awards thing. the teacher-incharge said we were the 'specially-invited-graduating-classes' followed by 'which means its compulsory'. boo. wasted my time. everyone were having a blast. laughing away. chatting away. pulling each others' legs.
but there i was. sitting there. like a fool. like an outcast. yeah, that's what i was. i didn't fit in at all. that's what i hate about school. school is like. is like a sheep farm? (bad descriptive example. i know.) o.O and im that black sheep. walking around aimlessly. with nowhere to go.
anyhow. after the whole program. the school, dispersed? sheri kailing and i stayed a little longer. then sheri's father came, she left with her sister. walked around for a bit. then kl & i went off. sat at the bus-stop. chatted. until 10plus. then we took 188 back home.
today;
im leaving sunny island singapore this evening. funny how come nobody believes me. -slapsforehead- haha. maybe 'cause i always talk nonsense and fool around. ((: anyway. everyone! its for real! -pauses awhile to think of what to right- its the start of the day. nothing much to write about. hmm.
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my lousy mood's not going away. leave. please? sigh.
i want to go to the beach. i want to stand on top of the rocks. i want to scream. i want to scream out loud. but. screaming wont help. will it? i want a hug. a big big hug. i want someone to tell me everything's alright. but its a lie. isn't it? i want to cry. i want to cry my heart out. but i cant. can i? i want to hide under the covers all day long. but it'll be as good as running away. is that right? what's wrong? i dont know. i really dont. i dont want to be someone i'm not. i dont want to live a life feigning someone i'm not. i dont want to put on a strong, a brave, and a happy front. when actually i'm dying inside. i want all of this to end. but it wont. that, i'm sure of. it wont. it wont go away..
