what if the time stops ticking at 7:32 PM
people. in school. in my class. my schoolmates. my classmates. they see me as a goody-two-shoes. in their minds. they think rachel is one who completes every single homework assigned to her. one who breaks no rules in school. one who passes with flying colours and makes no flaw. i, on the otherhand. beg to differ.
they overreact if i dont finish my homework. if i flunk a test. if i dont study for a test. if i score badly for exams. they give unnecessary comments/remarks, i DONT like to hear.
maybe its a compliment, in a way. that they think i'm the guai sort. maybe i was. maybe i've changed. either that. or they're portraying plain sarcasm.
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today in school. it was madeline who said, "aiyo, rachel ni bian huai le" due to the fact that i dint complete my chemistry homework. then glyn. who got a shock when he saw my N level cert. he told me he thought i was the kind whose life revolves only around books. study study studying. of course, the reason being what he said, was cause i dint do well for my N levels la. but. what the heck. its OVER. gone. history. ka-pooof!
funny thing is. after all they've said. it makes me want to work even harder. it makes me want to ace in my studies like i did in the past. maybe what my parents and teachers say MAKES sense. maybe i only have to be a nerd/geek for a couple of months, until the exams are over. maybe its time to snap out of my good'ol jolly days and get back to reality. two more days to my social studies exam. and i've not even touched the book. ok. maybe i DID touch it. but i've not read a single page from it! yes, smack me in the head. help me wake up.
i've been saying at the end of my blog entries that i'm going to study. going to do my homework. yada-yada. but half the time, i end up falling asleep. I CONFESS. )): at times, i feel like such a failure. a big. no. not just big. a WHOPPING big disappointment/letdown to my family. yeap.
i realised. in order to DO well. we must love our books. we must develop an interest in learning. (HA!) easy for me to say. but. it works okay! haha. its like..when you know how to do/solve/answer those questions. you feel DARN good. ok. nevermind. its hard to put in words. but. you can FEEL it. hahaha. problem is. i dont know where to start. zZzz.
we're given plenty of homework evryday. so how do we find time to do revision/studying? by the time we finish our work. we're half-dead alrdy and just wanna plop on the bed and switch to snooze mode.
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anyHOW. school dint pass by as quickly as i thought it'd be. but still, when the clock ticked 1:05, sheri and i left school. walked to westmall, dragging our feet. gave up halfway, took the bus. HAHA. ((: then met kailing overthere, catched IceAge2. stupid sabretooth squirrel and his acorn/nut. lol. after the movie. went home. yeap. that's my day.
