what if the time stops ticking at 8:34 PM
i need my breathing space. yes. i do. its suffocating me. please understand?
in school i feel suffocated. at home i feel suffocated. its nearly killing me. stop it people. stop it. can you not understand how annoying it is? maybe you dont. maybe to you, its known as PLEASURE. but you know what? zip it man. ZIP IT.
i cant STAND how you pressurize me. yes. to the very extent of me having horrifying HORRIFYING thoughts. YOU. you hog me like an eagle. i think you're driving me to the edge. i think when i cant take it i'll leap off the tall TALL cliff and end it all. i think i'll do just that. i cant stand your sarcasm. i cant stand the way you talk to me. i cant stand YOU. i cant.
im pressurized not only by one person. but many MANY people. this feeling. i can tell you. it SUCKS. yes it does. i dont give a hoot if anybody who'll leak this out reads this. cos its my bloody blog. i write whatever i want to.
i come home everyday. dead tired. all worn out. i have extra lessons or extra activities four out of five friggin' days. so i was saying, i come home. TIRED. i've got homework. assignments. and then there are CHORES waiting me. i only get a few PATHETIC hours to use the bloody computer. but you all have to NAG. and HOG. PIN ME DOWN like a bloody prey. ALL OF YOU. i have to GOBBLE DOWN my food everyday hoping to rush to the computer w/o my brother getting to it first. and when i ask him to let me use, "my sister is chasing me off" that's what he says. like bloody hell, he doesnt do that to me? ..... mom n dad. FOREVER using school work to attack me. if it makes you happy, IM STUPID and not as CLEVER AND BRIGHT as my DEAR BROTHER. are you satisfied? oh. no. wait. YOU TINK IM JUST PLAIN LAZY. im tired for goodness sake. I STUDY IN SCHOOL. I STUDY AFTER SCHOOL. i come home i have HOMEWORK. i dont study, and i just use the computer a little more than i should and ALL OF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY. argh. damn.
and then there's SOMEONE ELSE. crap you man. LET ME BREATHE. i dont owe you a living. i have a life. i WANT my life. stop doing such stuff that oh-so-irritates me. ARGH. damn the world. damn YOU ALL.
note;i had to let it out people. i had to.
